Author: bonica

Why are my thoughts so far from You?I want to draw near,to sit in Your presence,To be close to You. Yet my mind wandersTo useless thoughts.It focuses on the wrongs—unseemly things,Ungodly things. The world’s injustice screams for attention.I see the problems of others,The sins that make us ashamed.I see brother against brother,Sister fighting sister. My… Read more

This year has been one of growth—a year of stretching, healing, and learning. It hasn’t been easy. There have been tough lows, deep heartaches, and difficult conversations. Yet, as I reflect, I see how those moments served a purpose. Hard conversations can lead to better relationships and new starting points. The struggles have revealed both… Read more

The Lord is my strength, my song, my salvation. We are incredibly blessed in this life. I’m surrounded by so much good—people who love me, and countless blessings that I often take for granted. I don’t count them all, but I should. I should be thankful. Yet, so often, my focus shifts to the problems.… Read more

Do you ever feel defeated by life? It’s so easy to get caught in your head, feeling the weight of anxiousness pressing down on your shoulders. Lately, I’ve felt so heavy—physically, emotionally, and spiritually. It seems like no matter how much I work or focus, everything feels pointless. I wash, fold, and put away laundry,… Read more

Vultures. Quietly circling, scrolling, waiting to strike. Looking for some dead meat. Because that’s what you are to them now. You’re dead meat because you don’t look, think, or act like them. If you dare to have an opinion or belief that is different from theirs, they will chew you up and swallow you whole. Whatever… Read more

Have you ever felt trapped in a cycle of endless worries, struggling with issues that seem impossible to resolve? You’re not alone. I am a dweller. And I don’t just mean I spend time at home. Sure, I dwell in my house, but more importantly, I dwell in my mind. I often find myself stuck… Read more

I don’t know where to start with this. I’m tired. I’m tired of weeds. Weeds overrun my garden. I think my heart and mind are too. There are so many things in life that pull at you. They demand your time, attention, and energy. When you neglect the weeds, they grow stronger, root deeper, and… Read more

I am a stone,Hardened and small,Forsaken, alone,Rejected by all. Lost in the wilderness,Untended, neglected,In a sea of bitterness,Sad and dejected. Hardened stone,Cold-hearted and dull,Forgotten, unknown,Bitter and gall. My surface is rough,Appearance unsightly,Grumpy and gruff,Grieving contritely. They say I feel no pain‘neath my hardened surfaceYet, I feel the sun and rainA longing for my purpose I… Read more

I’m dreaming of a time when we had it all. A career set before me, plenty of work, and an abundance of money. This was my Egypt. In reality, we didn’t have it all. I know that. My mental space was crowded and overwhelmed. I was trying to work a full-time stay-at-home job while at… Read more